我不伟大的梦想

带着纯欣赏音乐的心情，我来到了罗忆诗的音乐会。

迟到的我与经纪人被安排坐在空无一人的第一排。有些尴尬，因为这空空的第一排位置很明显是给摄影师坐的，而我们两人很不好意思地越过人潮，然后小心奕奕地坐了下来。

灯光暗了,忆诗走了出来，我知道她这一走，走了九年。她说她总活在自己的世界，而我想，能自己活在自己世界的人其实是最幸福的。几首歌之后，另一段前奏的旋律响起。我全身疙瘩了一下，思绪突然被抛回很远很远。这一首，＂无望岁月＂。

＂无望岁月＂，在2011年4月19日Ntv7上映的一部电视剧＂足印＂的主题曲。

我的第一部电视剧。

很多的画面突然涌入我的思绪，伴随着忆诗熟悉的歌声，所有当年片断地回忆一片又一片的在我的脑海中播映。看着台上的忆诗，感受坐在台下的自己，有一种莫明的幸福感。有梦想的人，真好。

很多人说梦想是有钱人的玩意，可是我却觉得梦想是上天赐于每一人最昂贵的礼物。不需要金钱，无论你是大人小孩男的女的富的贫的，人人都能拥有。

本地的影视业，无论是电视剧、电影，跟唱片业一样，近来经济不景气，都一直在走下坡，在这个行业的工作者，能赚钱养活自己和家人越来越困难。但是还是有人不断地在为梦想努力着。

有时候我会想，如果有一天，为了梦想饿肚子，我会愿意妥协吗？

我看见过他们的笑容，我们劳苦功高的幕后工作者，在拍完每一部作品之后的满足感，作品得奖时的成就感。我感受过自己身的为一个演员的欣慰，在看见观众因为我们的表演而欢笑而感动。我想，那一刻我们都感觉着无法形容的快乐。

所以后来，我愿意。

只有遥不可及的爱情, 没有遥不可及的梦想。
诶，我怎么跳tone跳到那里去了。

还记得我演足印里一个小角色的时候，有一个前辈对我说，＂喂，不要拍戏了，回去读书啦！＂当时念着大一的我，感觉好奇怪，前辈何出此言。他的演技在行中人人夸赞，倍受尊敬，是个很棒的大哥。难道他觉得我的演技太差，或是太丑，所以不适合吃这行饭吗？

当时还是大学生的我没太在意，毕竟觉得自己也只是做做临时工，没打算当终生职业。然后我明白了他的苦心。隨着越来越多的工作量，我发现自己越来越爱表演，那好像我不断走入然后体验不一样的人生，再把这些故事带给我的观众。我希望体验不一样的情感，也喜欢丰富别人的情感。所以渐渐的，我把这视为我的梦想。我开始越来越投入工作，课业也开始越来越忙。

生活是疲惫的，不断地上课工作然后再工作再上课。我开始在载送演员的货车上做功课复习, 然后跳下车不是拍戏就是上课，还有试过直接考试。说起来，我想那是我第一次真正对我的人生有了坚持。无暇休息，无暇跟同学朋友玩耍，无暇约会，原来要实现梦想，是需要牺牲的。我想，这也是我第一次领悟牺牲，愿来可以变成美好。很多人说，拍戏的人都是疯子，是的，我们都是美丽的疯子。哪个伟人一开始不是疯子呢？

梦想，真的可以把渺小的我们，变得雄壮伟大。

音乐会完毕，合上像本旧相册的回忆，我满足地步出会场。

Wanted to feel Young so much

呼~刚忙完了考试，论文和拍摄，终于有机会在接近新年的这几天中抽空出来写写心情了！=D

It's been quite awhile I'm busy with my finals, thesis and also a new sitcom shooting, so now is the time for me to lay back and relax! wohoooo~

The final was ok, as that is the last exam in my academic year, I put a lots of effort in it, hopefully I can get good results la, lol. 

Time past really fast, like yesterday I was still a new and freshman in the year of 2009, looking forward to a romantic university life. And now, I'm the oldest batch of student in my uni, waiting for my turn to get the degree bachelor certificate. 

And yea, I'm literally 23 years old in this year 2014. yet I still feel like I'm 18 years old, haha, wanted to feel young so much. It's been 3 years since the first day I shoot for my first drama in 2009, and now there are more and more new faces that call me "Jie Jie" (big sis) like last time I used to called others, hahaha.

But recently I do feel young again, like really really young, like back to 18 or 19 years old that young. XD

Thanks for my new sitcom "We are Young", haha. From the tittle I guess you already know that it is a young and fun, comedy sitcom that brings out a lots of funny and hilarious moment while we are young and naifs. It about 8 young dream chaser living in a house, and their story about love, dream, friendship and family.

My housemates in this sitcom, we are the combinations of late 80s and 90s!

  We had so much fun while shooting for this sitcom, and this is the bunch of people that I faced everyday, even sharing same bedroom (with dear Ruby), which makes me feel so in love with them! awww I missed them so much now T^T

They are strangers to me from the start, but we did a lots of gathering to do rehearsal for the sitcom, so we kinda blend up with each other very fast \(^O^)/

During rehearsal, 

After a week for rehearsal, we finally have to start our shooting at Malacca A Famosa! =)

For me, it feels like having a vacation plus working moment after I finished my finals and also thesis, shooting at A Famosa is a really good idea indeed, hehe.

While shooting =)

Doing girls favourite moments, selfie time!!

We are Young, and Hilarious XD

With Director Wong Chee Wai

Our lovely make up artist, Kevin <3

With my roommate a.k.a. bestie in the sitcom, Ruby :3

With boyfie in the sitcom, Michael Chin, shalaka XD

Girls always have a lots of expression, hah.

with talented lil bro, Darren Lee.

on the buggy~

Stephanie, the cutest girl I've ever met! 

Sorry, I think I'm too tired to think of the selfie posing so I kinda act like a Siaopo ( insane women) haha.

Now is just a holiday break for this shooting, will continue it after Chinese New Year ! 

Stay tunes, Shadows <3

Oyeeahhh, 

Happy Chinese New Year in advanced !!!

The new challenge KITAI

Hi guys, I've gone through a busy October and November! My days are packed with thesis and assignments from college, and I did choose a research about the topic of " Which of the Experience and Education is more important for a Public Relations Practitioner?" hmm sounds boring right? Haha. FYI, I'm now a advanced diploma student from TARUC, and I'm in my second last semester before going to UK for further study. Wee =D

Oops sorry seems like I'm already off topic. Paiseh :P 

Yup, today I actually wanna talk about my new movie... *drum rolls* .. "KITAI" ( which means Betrayer in eng )

It's a Malay movie which is produced by MIG (Metrowealth) Malaysia, in the genre of Comedy Action. Yup!! It's a an Action movie XD and I have to fights with the bad guys too! Aries girl knows how to do it :/

There are three heroes in the movie, who are three superstars from the Malay Entertainment industry --> Farid Kamil, Sam Shaizey and also Fezrul Khan. All of them are very good actors and received many awards as Abang Sam is the most Popular Artist in Anugerah Berita Harian 2012.

The playful Fezrul Khan.

My fiancé in the movie, Farid Kamil

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And me, I'm really excited ( and got shocked) when I know that I'm the only girl character in "Kitai", which means that I'm also the heroin in this movie. 

 Chit chat w Abang Fezrul and Abang Sam during the press conference day of "Kitai".

Although this is not the first time that I take part in Malay movie, but this is really a shocking news for me as at first I'm really afraid of my own capability in the Bahasa Malaysia ( Malay Language). Like what I've said in the astro Arwani interview, I can talk BM, but not that fluent, and yet my role in this movie have to talk a lot.

This is really a big suprise for me as I never thought that they will choose me for this character. But they chance is always for the person who got ready, so I accepted the job. 

Dialouges is a very important element in the story, it leads the emotions, the storylines, and brings out the personalities of character. I know I must not mess it, not with the senior actor, not with my manager who always back up me, not with the producer who gave chances to me, not with my friends and family who encouraged me alot, and not with everyone of you who supported me in this journey. 

Life is a long journey and and we must go through unexpected challenges; It is better to conquer the fear rather than running away, right? =)

Experiencing my first time to wear "Selendang" during the prayer session of Muslim (scarf for cover over the hair, it's a culture for Malays); it's really fun to experienced other cultures in Malaysia.

The shooting will start very soon, and I'm now doing preparations for the shooting also practicing to fight XD in the movie. May be someday I can become junior of Dato Michelle Yeoh? Haha. 

Teaser for movie "Kitai".

Wish lucks for my guys! 

You can comment about your thoughts too :) love and hugsssss 

XOXO 

2013 金筝奖 Golden Wau Awards

50 年的电影梦， 得以在50 年后的今天金光破晓，启杨翱翔。
马来西亚电影业历史性的一刻，就在昨夜的 Bangsar Pullman Hotel 上演。
2013 金筝奖 Golden Wau Awards，是马来西亚电影人50 多年来终于破茧的成果。

真的很荣幸能跟一班艺人朋友们，导演们，幕后工作人员们 - 这一群因梦想而伟大的“造梦者”们一同见证这么感动的时刻。

在金筝奖发布之前，我一直都在想，马来西亚的中文电影该何去何从？
身在马来西亚，华人电影的市场本来就小，资金人才都苦苦寻求。
且说当年的《初恋红豆冰》，那么的不容易，无论在前期或后期制作都不断遭挫。
但造梦者就是越挫越勇！

之后开拍的甚多部中文电影，个人偏爱《甲洞》，且不说里面有我的男神许亮宇(XD)，但从故事内容，编剧，剪接，灯光，大部分演员都呈现了一定的水准，可说让我眼前一亮！

啊，我好像离题了！
赶快先po几张昨天的照片，哈哈！

感谢 The Edge Studio Calwin Wong 的发型赞助，简洁高贵的马尾出自他们手里!
简单的脸妆是自己画的，采用甜美烟熏风。

到场之后就是红地毯啦！

遇见了很多很多的圈内好友，在等待颁奖典礼开始之前，已成为惯例的Cocktail Party。

差不多一整个Cocktail Party 都在吃，在我身旁的当然有当晚很漂亮的美人鱼公主妹妹 Joey 梁祖仪。

大约八点三十分， 颁奖典礼正式开始。
随着一项项的奖项，感受到了马来西亚电影人的团结和坚持。
场面真的很温馨，很感动。尤其是在颁发一些幕后制作的奖项，例如导演，电影美术，妆发服装，灯光，音效，剪接；当他们一个个上台领讲的时候，也许电视机和台下的观众对他们很是陌生，可在我们眼里，这些平时比我们早开工却又迟放工的伙伴们，实在也熟悉不过的。

看着平时为了做好电影无暇打扮自己的他们，今天一个个美艳动人，帅气逼人的上台拿奖，心里真的好感动，眼泪在眼眶里打转，久久不能释怀。

终于，他们的辛劳有了归属。
虽然我只是一介新晋演员，但我感恩自己生在这个时代，这个马来西亚电影终于破茧的时代。


以下是得奖名单：

最佳电影 - 《初恋红豆冰》
最佳导演 - 周青元 《天天好天》
最佳男主角 - 梁志强 《笑着回家》
最佳女主角 - 李心洁 《初恋红豆冰》
最佳男配角 - 林德荣 《天天好天》
最佳编剧 - 李勇昌 《Nasi Lemak 2.0》
最佳摄影 - 杨俊麟 《初恋红豆冰》
最佳音效 - 杜笃之
最佳美术 - 傅文辉 《初恋红豆冰》
最佳造型 - E&W Styling Team 《大英雄小男人》
最佳电影主题曲 - We are Gangster 《鬼老大哥大》
最佳本地非中文电影 - Hikayat Warong Maha Wangsa
最受欢迎新加坡电影 - 《孩子不坏》

(左起)Derrick, Candy李佳洁，Wind Koh (LINE)

(左起)Derrick, 金燕子，Wind Koh (LINE)

(左起)Ruby Yap, Joey 梁祖仪，Agnes Wang

Days with Malay Production

Hi Everybody,

I'm currently doing a shoot for a Malay Drama called "Dia Suamiku" means "My Husband" in English, so while waiting for a few more scenes before it's my turn I decided to blog something about the entertainment industry :)

In Malaysia entertainment industry, there's only a very niche amount of Chinese artistes that would venture into a Malay drama/movie production. Probably its because of the language barrier or the working ethnics.

As for Chinese production company, their schedule is always very hectic as it may go up to 20 scenes per day or even 26 hours continuously(Which i've experienced it). Plus if you're the main character of the drama, there wont be any time for you to rest because everyone wants to end the shooting the soonest.

It a very tough job, I know some of you may think that Actors or actresses gets to sit on a coach and being served like a King or Queen but I'm sorry to say but it only happens in Hong Kong or China Movie production company. There is one word which can describe the working ethic of Chinese production company in Malaysia is:-

FAST

If you're a workaholic and loves to work efficiency, Chinese production company is totally suitable for you ;)

无间行者 The undercover (Ntv7) - Me as the bad bad girl 慧君

Okay, back to a Malay production company :)

They are always a very relax and laid back type of style when it comes to working.They will even treat the artist with tea-break in the evening and you can have splendid of time to prepare for your upcoming scenes. I LOVE THE FOOD they serve during the shoot. They have many variety and delicious food for everyone including the crews unlike in a Chinese production company we always eat tabao :(

Honestly I've never thought I would venture into a Malay entertainment industry sebab Bahasa Malaysia saya tak berapa baik :P , sometimes I find it difficult to understand their dialogues which makes it even harder for me to act/react on it :(

The best part is my current company MIG , 98% of their productions are Malay dramas and movies which means I have to adapt and learn from this new environment. Who knows hopefully years down the road I will be more success in the Malay entertainment industry :P Muaha ha ha ha ha ha he he he he

with Yana Samsudin, the famous Superstar in Malay's Entertainment industry.

Its a very tough decision because I have lots of challenges to go through. This might even effect my career as I have to give reaction while memorizing the dialogues in the same time. ISH ISH ISHHHHHHHH

But it will be okay, as I keep telling myself that I have to always challenge myself with things that I'm not familiar with so that in that way I can become much more stronger! :)

Although there are differences between the various entertainment industry, I have the utmost respect for people who sacrifice for the love of arts :) They might not earn big money but yet they still hold on tight with their dreams! SALUUUUTEEEEEH!!

Alright ITS A WRAP because I have to continue my shoot! Bye love you all ! Muuackzzzzzzzzzz

Nah, Just a Korean Braid that my hairstylist did to me today =)

Name me Student-Actress.

Life.

Hmm. Just feel that I should write down my life journey so that I can still recall them when I'm 70 years old. *and due to my poor memory, it's better to write it down in case I forgot who dumped me when I was young LOL

Acting ac couple with Lawrence Wong in my first movie - "Glorifying Love"

It's been 3 years that I joined into entertainment industry.
This acting journey has made me a little bit different from the others that similar to my age. 
Yea I always admitted that life is too short and too bored to become an ordinary person. 人不轻狂枉少年嘛！ 
So, I think that I'm a very lucky girl who got the chances of being an actress in my life compared to others =) Well, will talk more about the Student-Actress life in the next post kay?

Making faces in "Glorifying Love"

And because many of you are curious about an Student-Actress life, I'm gonna reveal few facts in life of a Student-Actress.

1. Never get enough of sleep. *If the exams and shooting are crashing, you might even can't sleep for few days.

2. People might think that you are a rich arrogant young girl. 

3. Always got shocked when people suddenly ask for photograph in the University. *Especially you are very focus in reading or doing assignment. But I still love you guys kay? just got shocked only. Please do come and ask for photograph or say Hi to me, I love that!  =)

4. Get to know many great/successful/amazing people in the community much more earlier than your classmates. 

5. Hard to blend into new gang of friends in the class. *You will be late for class, or may be sometimes need extra help in doing assignment due to busyness. Not many people nowadays are willing to share their tips to help a teammate that only can provide a little bit of effort, no matter what is the reason. But I'm lucky because I have one =)

6. Your must be well manner in the public, no matter is a public event or private event. *You might get comment on your fb post "I saw you at Cheras XXX, you are digging your nose LoLL" 

Not-so typical Aries here I am.